A possibly misleading subject line, for which I sincerely apologise. It is sort of appropriate though.
Way back on Day 61, I wrote about my Nana and her lack of enthusiasm at the thought of the birth of her first great-grandchild.
Way back on Day 61, I wrote about my Nana and her lack of enthusiasm at the thought of the birth of her first great-grandchild.
I wrote at the time, in possibly rather overblown fashion (shirley not?), but sincerely enough, 'her own impending mortality makes it hard for her to get too excited. She's already decided she won't live through another winter.'
I am thoroughly delighted that her judgement has proved to be in error. Just a few days before the due date, she is still with us, and really not much different from how she was back in the late Spring. Mentally, she's nothing like the woman she was - though she does still show her former humour and intelligence when she's in a good mood - but being a bit forgetful and repetitive isn't enough to render her uncapable of enjoying what's about to happen.
Looking back over these entries, I can get some idea of how far we've come and how long it's been. It seems simultaneously an absolute age and a blink of an eye, but I clearly remember how upset I felt at the idea that Nana wouldn't see the baby, and particularly how shocked I felt at her apparent indifference back when she thought it was something she wouldn't be around to see.
There's nothing keeping Nana alive. She's not on any medication that would do it. She has drops for her glaucoma, but nothing life preserving. She's here under her own steam, and now she knows she's going to see the baby and she's excited.
I'm excited for her too.
Looking back over these entries, I can get some idea of how far we've come and how long it's been. It seems simultaneously an absolute age and a blink of an eye, but I clearly remember how upset I felt at the idea that Nana wouldn't see the baby, and particularly how shocked I felt at her apparent indifference back when she thought it was something she wouldn't be around to see.
There's nothing keeping Nana alive. She's not on any medication that would do it. She has drops for her glaucoma, but nothing life preserving. She's here under her own steam, and now she knows she's going to see the baby and she's excited.
I'm excited for her too.
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